Dear Diary, She's Making Progress!

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Dear Diary, She's Making Progress!

by Justsimplyciani

Dear Diary,

      

  Over the years, I’ve kept saying to myself, “ I want to start going to the gym.” But I never actually committed myself consistently working out. I wanted a change, I wanted to start living the life that I’ve envisioned to have! In order for me to become the woman that I truly want to be I had to make some necessary changes in my life. So I asked myself what my dream girl is, what is she doing in her daily life? I envision as she navigates through life that she’s creating more healthier habits in her daily routine.  But what did that necessarily mean? I started journaling, asking myself important questions about my dreams and wants. What makes  me fulfilled and happy inside? Not for the sake of validations of others but for me, myself, and I. And now I was after it! 

Before I knew it,  I was  stepping inside of the gym. I immediately started becoming overwhelmed and intimidated by the thought of working out. I couldn’t believe that I was psyching myself out? Allowing my fears and self-doubts to almost become the best of me. I began to think to myself and said, What if I look crazy working out and someone looks at me? I barely don’t even know what I’m doing? What am I doing here? The self-doubt started to creep in one by one. Creating scenarios in my head! Telling myself that I am not good enough to step outside of my own comfort zone. But then I realized that I am good enough and now I am making progress!

  Until I realized I’ve made the biggest step of my life and that’s showing up! You see, it’s not about who finished the race first but it’s about embracing the journey as you continue to show up for yourself each and every single day. You are showing up for you and the woman that you want to be! No one else.  And now you are making progress. Step by step. Move by move on your own timing! So slow down. It’s not a race! Not a competition by anyone's means. But at your own pace! You are doing your very best. So  stop being so hard on yourself! Instead be patient with yourself. You’ve never been on this specific  journey before it’s all new to you.  You are now being molded and refined into the woman you want to be!  A flower. That’s growing as she’s being nourished by new soil that’s being watered. Before you bloom,  you sprout. You’ve now reappeared to the world. Although the world may not be ready to witness the woman that’s been waiting to say 'Yes’ to everything that’s been telling her no you still continue to rise. 

  In this season of your life, you, my dear, are right where you are supposed to be. You took that one step! Now you are unfolding a past version of yourself; unlocking the key that waits for the destination that you’ve been waiting all along. Continue to give yourself grace as you enter a new room that has been set before for you! Keep going, and keep believing in yourself. When the world around you continues to throw rocks along your path. You keep going, and believing,  in the woman that’s been waiting  for you on the other side of your fears. She’s waiting, she’s cheering you on as you continue to navigate every season of your life because she believes in you and her. 

Sincerely, 

The woman who's making progress each and every single day 

I affirm, I am worthy of new beginnings!